A Day of Surprises

Woke up this morning to find out my sister had collapsed. Again. Had a Grand Mal seizure. Again. The only thing different this time, was she actually stopped breathing and her mouth was blue. I don't think I've ever seen my mother cry so much or so hard as she did this morning and I've never felt more helpless in my entire life. Thankfully she started breathing again, and the ambulance rushed her back to emergency which I believe is quickly becoming her second home. I think secretly she digs the food.

We were meant to go house hunting again today. D, Garth and I. Garth decided rather than go house hunting, he would go to the hospital with Mum, and D and I would go looking at houses. This was confirmed and agreed to by all household members, so off we went. The entire trip up the coast this morning, I was wraught with worry and fear, so much so that I kept crying on and off all the way there.

An hour or so later, we'd chosen 3 brand new 4 bedroom houses to apply for, and our estate agent was happy, promising to call us on Monday with further details. With luck we'll get approved for the first house on our list which we absolutely adored, even though it has no a/c and we'll have to buy a free standing one before Summer hits.

Just before we headed to lunch, I got an SMS from Mum updating us on my sisters condition. Blood levels were normal. Blood pressure was low and dropped dramatically through the series of tests. They can't figure out why so she's been referred to a neurologist.

I'm still worrying over it even though Tia's home now and is feeling better, albeit very tired. This isn't fair that this keeps happening to her and there's one freaking thing any of us can do, except wait for whatever happens next and deal with it then.

And, because I'm the Goddess of Clumsy, I sliced open my middle finger on my right hand today, opening up a pack of gum. GUM.

Hotmail, You Insensitive Piece of Shit

How dare you just reload at whim and make me lose an entire page and a half of an email I was writing? Don't you know that NOW I have to go back and rewrite it all? Don't you realize that I'm just super mad about it and right now if I could I would cancel you for good? I hope something karma-like and mean and rotten and nasty happens to you in your cyberspace world.

I've Created a Monster

I've introduced my sister to the wonderful world of blogging. I'm still trying to get various other people to start it up as well - VK you DEFINITELY should - and I'm going to link her site as soon as she says it's ok. For all I know it might be *ahem* private.

In other news, I dyed my hair last night. Chocolate brown, which is very deep in colour but also has red highlights from my previous dye job. Looks verrrry interesting and so far people seem to really like it.

When Are You Going to Blog Again?!

The very question demanded of me by my Mamala this morning, so here it is. In all truth I haven't had much desire to update lately, probably because I've been so tired and just feeling generally lazy and boring.

My life hasn't been boring however, we have been house-hunting furiously in the last week, and I'm happy to announce we FINALLY found an agent who is going to help us. Huge kudos for the wonderful folks at LJ Hooker, particularly Teresa at our branch. We told her what we're looking for, and she's got a myriad of brand new houses coming up this week and next, so she's just waiting on getting the keys before we can go and take a look at them. And they're mostly all 4 bedroom homes as well which is what we want.

Beyond that, I'm beginning to now feel bubby moving inside me. It was very weird at first and I wasn't sure if what I was experiencing was him moving, or if I was just gassy. The first movements were a fluttery feeling down very, very deep, feeling like it was in the canal itself and just felt like a butterfly beating its wings against me. It was a very weird but pleasant sensation, and then after I got up and headed to the loo, as I was sitting there leaning forward slightly (so as to completely empty the bladder which is VERY important because trust me you get so freaking sick of constantly getting up to go pee every hour) I suddenly felt two very prominent but dull pokes, right under my belly button. Of course, I sat up straight immediately and seconds later, rushed out to the kitchen to proclaim what I thought was fetal movement. Turns out, it was! And then again I felt it last night as I was laying in bed reading, it felt like a tumbling mouse in my lower abdomen that rolled twice. I'm not sure if it was his legs stretching out, or his arms, but it was a definite movement and I instinctively began gently rubbing my belly in that spot. I didn't feel him again before I went to sleep, but I'm so loving this feeling when it happens.

He also did his first flip the other night - the same night I felt him move the first time - which I only knew about because I was suddenly very nauseous and very dizzy. I had gotten up to help Mamala with dinner (I think getting the vegies) and leaned against the sink feeling very much like I was going to throw up (which I have not done at all through the pregnancy). She asked me what was wrong, so I explained the feeling I had as I sat down, and she laughed and gave me a glass of water. "Sounds like bub's flipped," she grinned. Evidently it used to happen to her while she was pregnant.

I can't wait until winter is done with. I can't even comfortably do up my jeans and the zipper keeps falling down, but yet it's still too cold that I can't wear skirts or shorts and I refuse to buy larger size jeans when we only have a couple weeks of this weather left. It's so highly frustrating!!

I have my new Dr. appt in 2 weeks, where I get to meet a new Dr. I found and hopefully he'll be alot bloody better than the last one I saw and 2 days after that appt, I have another one at the local hospital where I get to meet my midwife(s) and have a tour of the maternity section of the hospital. I'm VERY excited about that and can't wait to do it! I then have to schedule another ultrasound for my 20th week and HOPEFULLY he'll be in the right position for us to get a gender check. Fingers crossed we're having a little boy!!

I'm Happy to be Home Today

I have been out of the house every single day this week, and I am so tired. Today especially because even though I slept well, today being Thursday is practically the nation's payday for pensioners and dole bludgers, so as I trudged into the mall with Mum and Nanna to do the weekly grocery shop, I was immediately overwhelmed by old people. And they were shuffling. Alot. And getting in the way. And so were young "Money-Mummies" with their tots slung in their arms, just milling about also being in the way. But the old people greatly outweighed the Money-Mummies and dole bludgers. I think no less than 100 people sucked my energy from me today.

Now I want to just curl up and sleep the remainder of the night away, however since I need to go cook dinner, I can't do that just yet.

Why can't I be rich and have my own personal cook?

Ultrasound Photo

My ultrasound photo at 14 weeks; 9cm long, heart rate at 146 beats per minute. Weighs roughly 49grams.



Taken August 19th, 2005.

Baby Update - 14 weeks, 3 days

Hello internet, so sorry for the lack of posts and updates - things have been sort of whirling around here.

Let me start by saying my sister is okay. She came home on Friday afternoon and has been on new meds since yesterday because her previous sulphur based ones were giving her an allergic reaction. Other than suffering from a head cold (the very same I was afflicted by) she is doing much, much better.

On Friday I had my second ultra sound done. This one was to determine the nuchal translucency which determines if there are any chromosomal abnormalties are found (ie: Trisomy, Downs Syndrome). I am very happy to report my baby is perfectly healthy, with very minimal risk of DS (1 in 1200). He's also measuring in at 8.7cm long, with a heart rate of 146 beats per minute, and has 2 arms, 2 hands, 2 legs, 2 feet! I have my next ultrasound in about 6 weeks time to determine gender, among many other things. I'm soooo excited, though sadly D won't get to come with me because he'll be working, and he missed this last one I had as well but I will have new pictures for him!

It's funny, I was chatting with Mum today and up until this last ultrasound, even though I know I'm pregnant, I didn't FEEL as though I was. I didn't feel like any of this was real, or if I was just imagining it. . .until I saw him up on the monitor. His whole body would convulse every few minutes, as though he had the hiccups, and it was just the most adorable thing I'd ever seen. He moved around a little bit for me, even turning over once so I was able to see his spinal cord VERY clearly, and the sonographer zoomed in nice and close so I was almost able to count his vertibrae. It was the most AMAZING sight I've ever seen and I so badly wanted to cuddle him right then and there. I'm so excited and cannot WAIT until he comes out to join us. Through the scan, the sonographer kept pushing down on my belly to get him to move, and once she actually had both hands on the side of my belly pushing in, but he wasn't interested in moving for her. I had to laugh inwardly at that, knowing that I've been pushing and playing with my stomache for the last month and a half has gotten him used to it, and he probably no longer reacts to it! He seemed very serene though, very content to just lay there being poked and prodded, and only moving when he felt it necessary to do so. I think he's going to be alot like his parents and move along at his own pace, not daring to be rushed or pushed into anything.

I'm so looking forward to my next ultrasound and seeing him, and maybe I'll even get to hear him pretty soon, as we still haven't heard the heartbeat. I don't quite know how I'm going to react to that - I cried each time I got to see him on the monitor during the ultrasounds, so I can only imagine what I'm going to be like when I finally get to hear his heartbeat.