Staind: It's Been Awhile

It's been awhile, since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile, since I first saw you
And it's been awhile, since I could stand on my own two feet again
It's been awhile, since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

It's been awhile since I could say
That I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile, since I could say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile, since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
And it's been awhile but all that shit seems to
Disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile, since I could
Look at myself straight
And it's been awhile, since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile, since I've seen the way
The candles light your face
And it's been awhile but I can still remember
Just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
To be - I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile since I said
I'm sorry